So I typed this the last time I accessed the computer. Today is the next! Thank you so much Patrick!!!! He lent me his computer so I could do some work. So I gave up going out to a house party to stay at home and use the computer. Oh well! Not really in a partying mood right now. More like in a ...''I wanna fix my computer mood!'' October 26, 2006 Everything that can go wrong will go wrong! I had told myself all during first year that if my computer stopped working during my thesis year and I lost my thesis I might have to take a year out of school or something. On Tuesday this week my computer stopped working. I had always dreaded that…so I had tried to back up my main documents often. Apparently not often enough! I was semi calm as I had most of my thesis research. My mom said to take a rest and pray about it, and my brother tried to guide me to repair it. I took it to the computer guy at school who painted an entire picture of gloom. After I left his office it really occurred to me that I might never see some documents again. My friends, well some expressed shock temporarily, but or course their life was good and it wasn't their computer so they were back to normal in a few seconds. Then I realize it only seems like the world is closing in on you if it is your computer. At this point there is only so much I can do. So even though life was hard before, it is about to get a lot rougher since I will now have to spend longer hours at school to do research, since the house computer can't access the internet. Today I called one of my frat bro's who loves gadgets. He came over to see what he could do and left to try to back up the hard drive files for me. I pray that he can!!!! He said he would try to loan me his old laptop if it did not work out. At least there was some hope since I had like an assignment for every class due this coming week. Somehow this might be God's test to me to not be so dependent on the material possession and that I can survive anything. It has to be. I guess most of my friends or studio mates noticed the change… ''What's wrong? Are you ok?'' My answer …yeah I am fine! Why get into the whole story of how my computer was not working. There really was nothing they could do besides the three seconds of silence. They somehow expected me to be in a festive mood and go out to eat and hang out. Now that my life now will mostly be at school to type up assignments I might as well go home and rest while I can. Anyway, I landed a free ticket to the Dorm Step show and decided to attend since it was my last year. Of course no one I knew was going or had a ticket so I would have to go alone. I met one other brother who was excited about going but had no ticket, so I inveigled her to come and said that we would find someone at the door with a ticket. She came and we were hustling outside with the scalpers, but we made it in. This was the only 2 hours of the day that I did not think about my stresses and worries about assignments and my computer. I really enjoyed it. I saw most of the new dances. So now I can ''Walk it out'' \(One of the new dances :-0!\) One of the students in my first year class looked all glossy eyed in class so I asked him what was going on…he said he was meditating and that I should try it. Maybe I might right after I graduate…Lol! Obviously there is not enough time in the day to think about nothing for an hour or more. Lol! I guess I try and sometimes I succeed if the activity is really good and the people around are good company. Sometimes I have too much of the people at school and need to hang with a new grouping of people…so that is when I do church limes and house limes. Oh! The whole house actually went roller skating last week which was fantastic. I had a great time and felt it in my feet the day after. Apart from my computer the week was good. I was on top of all my work and got an A in my assignments for photography so I was on top of the world. The lecturers said I had the best color correction he had seen a student have. Yay!!!! So I am still excited about photography, currently printing my latest assignment. I had one sad moment when I asked another of my students why she did not attend class on the previous day and she said to me ''My mother died earlier this year and it is really hard for me, so sometimes I need to grieve and I can't make it to school.'' I knew exactly what she means! Some days I want to lie in bed and reminisce about my grandmother, but I know she would really want me to pick myself up and go to school so I can graduate. So I do! This weekend is Homecoming Weekend for my school so I got tickets to the game. I am not a football fan \(American\), but I go to the game just for the activities around the game and the music bands. Then there are like three Bar-B-Que''''s to attend, he schools', my houses' and my fraternity. Everyone insists that I be there, but they are all at the same time and since I am not mobile I can't go for a while. I went to my fraternities last year so this year I was figuring I should go to the one at my house, but now my friend is a bit upset since this is her first Bar-B-Que with the fraternity and I will not be there. If I don't go to the one at my house I will be seen as not taking part in the activities since all the heads at the Foundation will be there. I know I have to show my face, since I am trying to apply for HR at the house. Until later….or when ever I am around a computer again Miss Trini |
